NIKKI Grahame shared "special moments" with her friends in Australia on her final holiday before her tragic death.
The 38-year-old Big Brother icon died on Friday following a three decade struggle with anorexia.
Her mum Sue, 66, recently told how Nikki loved visiting friends abroad.
The reality star's final trip was to Queensland in January 2020 just months before the coronavirus pandemic made holidays an impossibility.
On the holiday Nikki hung out with former Big Brother Australia couple Tim Dorner and Ash Toweel.
She shared smiling photos from the trip on Instagram as the trio hit the idyllic beach.
"So many special moments shared with these incredible souls," she wrote.
Heartbroken Ash and Tim have both since paid heartfelt tributes to Nikki.
"My Dear sweet Nikki," wrote Ash. "Words can't begin to describe the sadness we're all feeling losing you. You were a pocket rocket of laughs, tantrums but most importantly kindness.
"You always called me your sweet precious boy and made me feel like the most special person in the world reminding me when I couldn't see it myself. I wish I could've helped you like you helped me."
While Tim said: "Our wacky worlds collided in the most unreal of ways when we both entered the Big Brother Canada house together but we became friends for life."
"You were my kindred spirit, beautiful flower, sidekick of mischief, iconic superstar and true friend in hard times for me… I'm going to miss you so much."
Nikki had checked into a private hospital to treat her eating disorder last month after her desperate friends managed to raise more than £65,500 to start paying for life-saving care.
However, her passing was confirmed in a statement on her GoFundMe page.
It read: "It is with great sadness, we have to let you know that our dear friend Nikki passed away in the early hours of Friday 9th April.
"It breaks our hearts to know that someone who is so precious was taken from us at such a young age. Nikki not only touched the lives of millions of people, but also her friends and family who will miss her immensely.
"We would like to request privacy at this difficult time, while Nikki's friends and family process the sad news.
"Full details will be released as and when we know them."
It continued: "All donations have been greatly appreciated and it was heartwarming for everyone including Nikki to see how much she was loved."
Nikki's rep Freddie White also said in a statement: "It is with immeasurable sadness that Nikki Grahame passed away in the early hours of Friday 9th April 2021. Please respect the privacy of Nikki’s friends and family at this tragic and difficult time."
Following the news, tributes immediately started pouring in for Nikki – who rose to fame on the 2006 series of Big Brother from her fellow contestants, reality stars and celebrities who had met her.
Katie Price, 42, revealed her heartbreak that she had missed Nikki's final voice message to her before her tragic passing.
Her sad death comes after her haunting last Instagram post where she admitted she "seriously can't deal" with another lockdown.
Meanwhile Nikki’s mum Sue appeared on This Morning last week and said her daughter's health battle was sparked when gyms closed during lockdown as the star dreaded eating if she couldn't exercise.
She said: "With Covid, it sounds crazy but stuff like gyms closing impacted her.
"In order for her to eat she needs to know she can exercise, so when they closed it was quite a worry, the isolation as well.
"I asked her if she would come and stay with me but she said she needs to be in her home."
"She was (suffering terminal loneliness) she felt very cut off and spending too much time on her own with not enough to think about other than food.
"It all came to a grinding halt. Also for Nikki, she would muddle herself through the year knowing she's got friends abroad and she would visit them.
"She spent a lot of time last year cancelling holidays."
Sue said she had a message for her daughter’s fans: "I heard from Nikki this morning and she said, 'please stress how overwhelmed I am at people's kindness towards me. I am so grateful.'
"But she said 'also tell everybody I'm going to try my level best to beat this'."
Nikki's mum also shared the moment she realised "something was wrong" with the star aged just seven years old, when they headed out for dinner as a family on Mothering Sunday.
She said: "We had a lot of stuff going on. You know, my dad got very sick and of course that affected me and I think she was worried for me and I tried to put on a brave face.
"We had other things going on, my marriage broke up and my husband had struggles at work so I know (our home) wasn't a happy place.
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"One point stands in my mind. She was seven and we went to a restaurant and Nikki stood beside me, she wouldn't actually sit, she was just beside me and it was around that time that I noticed, she started refusing to eat, that's the one thing that stuck in my mind."
The fundraiser's target was initially £25,000, with big-hearted celebs including Rylan Clark-Neal, Michelle Visage, and Vanessa Feltz each donating £500.
Nikki's representative told The Sun at the time: “It is with sadness that we can confirm Nikki’s battle with anorexia has worsened in recent months and those closest to her are doing everything they can to assist with her recuperation, most notably in the form of a Go Fund Me page.
"We are confident Nikki will be able to make a full recovery and she would personally like to thank everyone for their kind words, wishes and donations today and beyond.”
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Nikki's friends desperately tried to raise the cash as they believed a specialist clinic was her "last hope".
Her pals Carly and Leon explained on the fundraiser page: "Over the past years Nikki's family and friends have tried so desperately to get Nikki all the help possible through the NHS but unfortunately the treatments have failed and we have exhausted every avenue possible, and now Nik is unfortunately in a very bad way, this is now our last hope.
"At the moment, Nikki constantly feels weak and is struggling on a day to day basis," they wrote.
"She feels trapped and really wants to get better but feels like it’s impossible. It’s heart-breaking and we desperately just want a healthy and well Nikki back with us.
"She has no energy and is taking each day as it comes."
Nikki had been open about her anorexia battle since finding fame in Big Brother back in 2006, releasing autobiography Dying To Be Thin in 2009.
She has been fighting the illness since she was a child, and was first admitted to a psychiatric hospital at the age of 12 following a suicide bid.
At one point, Nikki had to be force fed through a nasal tube after she starved herself.
Despite her battle with the eating disorder, Nikki's bubbly personality – and dramatic reactions – made her an instant hit when she entered Big Brother in series seven in 2006.
One of her classic moments was when she cried "Who is she?!" about a new housemate in the Diary Room chair, while her relationship with eventual winner Pete Bennett won the hearts of viewers.
While their romance didn't last long once back in the real world, Nikki remained popular, landing her own reality series, Princess Nikki.
She returned to the Big Brother house for Ultimate Big Brother in 2010, where she finished as runner up to series two winner, Brian Dowling.
Nikki also appeared as a guest housemate in series 16 in 2015 and took part in the fourth series of Big Brother Canada the following year, finishing in sixth place.
Her success on Big Brother lead to her winning a National Television Award for Most Popular TV Contender.
As well as her TV work – which included appearances on shows such as 8 Out of 10 Cats and Celebrity Coach Trip – Nikki also published two books about her battle with anorexia, Dying To Be Thin in 2009 and Fragile in 2012.
- For help and support on eating disorders and body image, you can call Beat Eating Disorders on 0808 201 1677 for adults, or 0808 801 0711 if you are under 18.
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